Query

How do we say goodbye
To those who are dearly departed?
Assailed by questions of Why?
We ponder them brokenhearted

Some will say that "it was their time"
And others that "they are with God now"
But for those that they leave behind
The paramount question is How?

How do I go on without you,
When you were so vital to me?
When I can't stop thinking about you,
And I can't stop these tears that flow free?

What can I possibly do,
When I don't want to continue living?
Suicide is a sin it is true
But I'm tempted so God, please forgive me?

Where do I go from here,
When for Heaven you've already left?
Though I still feel your presence near
In your absence I'm forlorn and bereft

I don't know how long I can wait
Until God finally eases this pain
But the question of When's up to Fate
And I'll love you in spirit till then

You were the calendar of my heart
My Summer, Fall, Winter, my Spring
My Alpha, Omega, from finish to start
To me you were everything

For a decade I labored beside you
Providing for your every need
And the only solace I can find now
Is that perhaps you are peaceful in Sleep

For now His will is my daily task
To carry on is what you both ask that I do
But every moment since the moment you passed
It seems I can't cease thinking of you

So for each day I continue to last
I will cherish my memories of you
Your were my Present, my Future, and Past
And I will never stop loving you



Dedicated to Merle Peterson
a devoted husband who lost his wife
to ESRD following their ten-year struggle
to sustain life with dialysis