Insomnia

I struggled for sleep just last night
Awakening at least two dozen times
It seems fatigue could not overcome
The queries of a restless heart

I fought for hours to find peace
In a bed that was mine alone
And waking each time wondered
Was your bed empty as well?

Hearing midnight whispers insistent
Calling your name out aloud
The soft hiss sibilant in darkness, but -
Whose voice was shaping your vowels?

I needed you last night, but alone
I lay enveloped in yearning, wanting
To hold you near and fearing that
Another's arms were clasping you instead

I lay trembling, cold in the knowledge
That the warmth you might feel
Was not provided by covers, nor blankets
But by a comforter that wore flesh

And bearing this burden of angst
I felt a weight pressing down upon me
Like a thief in the night, jealousy stole
From me what was most precious

I cannot find sleep, for trust is gone
And I discover myself obsessed
With unanswerable questions
Of fidelity; must I share you now?

I do not know how long I can last
Without the security that was your love
By day I am distracted by the mundane
But supine... desperation is my companion

Will I never find sleep again?
Tormented by a wait interminable
Cognizant there is no guarantee
You shall ever return to my embrace?

In your abscence hope has departed
And in this bed lays only despair
For you were my dreams of every hour
And Night is unending without you